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So we were totally spontaneous this weekend. We woke up earlier than we normally do and went to pick up a card for my new camera and then we were going to go take pictures so I can learn how to use said new camera. Well after we picked up the card I said, "let's go driving, we haven't done that for awhile". So we were driving and I was thinking some more and said, "No! Let's go home and get my camera and then we'll drive north and we'll pack an overnight bag just in case!". I thought for sure my hubby would say no but we didn't necessarily have any commitments Sunday since it was stake conference and WHAT THE HEY! We never get to really go away on the weekend. So he made the suggestion why not Helen?

So we found a place to stay for the night and drove right on up and had a blast. Here are some pictures from our trip taken with my new camera :) We played miniature golf and we went to this hole in the wall tarantula museum, also had some lizards. Then we ate yummy food :) Oh and I also saw a beautiful ring in one of the shops and I had to have it!! Picture is in the line up :)

 Tarantulas: (ew)

 some kind of lizard

 

Today is temporary tomorrow forever...

Today-I am making changes to my life.

I always had the idea that everything would be the way I wanted...eventually. If I waited long enough, that is.I have come to the realization, albeit a little late, that if you want a certain thing in life you have to go and get it.

So I have decided to finally take a little leap of faith and go back to school, to put myself out there even if it means total and utter failure.

Failure, at least means you tried.

I have always loved makeup and anything beauty related and I have looked into a few different beauty schools to go to. If everything works out I will be going to the Paul Mitchell Esani School to become a board certified Esthetician come June.

I don't know why I didn't go into this field when I was younger but now I am getting to a point in my life that I don't want regrets. I don't want to look back and go, why did I do that or why didn't I do that.

So here I am, making my leap because I am tired of waiting for things that may not happen. Understanding that I can't control everything I, at least, can control this and do what I love and feel that I am progressing toward something wonderful.

The end result, honestly, doesn't matter to me. I know that may seem strange to some but I don't care if I actually get a job doing makeup or whatever else in the beauty industry, I just want to feel that sense of accomplishment, success and fulfillment.

My goal has been, and always will be, to be a mother but it isn't happening for me right now but I can't keep dwelling on what I don't have. I must keep moving. Will we continue trying for a baby? Absolutely. I can assure everyone that goal will not be put on hold while I go to school but for my own happiness, for my own sanity, I must progress in the life I have now.

The only irony in all of this will be if I get pregnant before school starts but I will be happy regardless because I at least tried and I can move on.

If I keep living my life in tomorrows all today will be is a regret. Today is only temporary, make the most of it.

Just wanted to say...

That I have the cutest nieces ever! And that it is incredibly difficult to type this on my iPod.

That reminds me I am officially in the 30th year of my life. In celebration I received an iPod touch from my hubby, a beautiful ring from my parents and of course money.

I don't like it. I believe I shall be telling people that I am forever 29. Can I do this? I honestly don't feel any different but I wonder if one day I will wake up and look in the mirror and think when did that winkle get there or that gray hair?

Well, here's to my 30s. Please be kind and be the best years of my life

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Have no fear I am in fact still alive.


My hubby and I have been working, exercising and preparing ourselves to be future parents. No I am not pregnant but if we are to hope to have children we both need to prepare our bodies to be able to handle the riggers of parenthood and really I don't want a baby being the weight I have let myself get to.

My hubby and I have joined weight watchers and will be increasing the amount we exercise. I am 100 lbs heavier than I need to be. I kept my high school weight steady (a 100lbs ago) pretty much until I got married and  after marriage well....anyway my ultimate goal is be 100 lbs lighter by next summer which I can do. If, of course, I stick to my guns. Sometimes I want to go back on the HCG diet but I grew tired of my limited food. I would have a great supply of optional foods if I enjoyed eating fish, crab and shrimp but alas I do not and I was stuck with chicken and beef every day and I grew tired of defending the diet itself. It really does make more sense than what people give it credit for. I have been on weight watchers for almost 3 weeks now and have only really lost a pound. Go me.

This is why diets are so discouraging especially for people with PCOS. PCOS makes it really easy to gain weight and hard to lose it. This is another plus to HCG. I lost pretty much a pound a day and I wasn't hungry at all nor did I have any muscle loss and lost 30lbs easy peasy but just with any diet though if you don't change your eating habits after you stop dieting, guess what? You'll gain the weight back. Doesn't matter whether it's HCG or weight watchers.

**sigh**

No...I won't be doing HCG...even though I really want to. I shall stick to weight watchers for now and see how I do. Wish me luck...I'll need it.